Part of the problem (or at least my problem) of being chubby, losing weight, putting a significant amount back on, and working my bum off to get it back off, is the toll it's taken on my mental health.
The good news is that my self-hatred for my body has basically been erradicated. I truly believe that if I was to stay at this size for awhile, I'd be okay with it. I'm proud of what I've worked at to achieve, and so excited to keep pushing forward. But if nothing were to happen, if I were to plateau, it'd be okay.
The problem now then?
I still have scale issues. In the last 3 weeks, I've been on the scale 3 times. All favourable results, yes, but every time I get on that scale and feel that little twitch in my tummy of happiness, I wonder what I'm going to feel like if the scale doesn't budge for awhile or if it even goes up. I can't let a number have power over me. That's not how this works.
It's February 5th, and I'm not getting back on the scale until the end of the month. Nope.
Anyways..... other things that happened in the last few days:
I'm now down 11lbs and seated in the 150s again (okay 159, but I'll take it!).
I bought a new lulu gym outfit. Hooray for matching! Though I need to figure out what else to pair with the crops.
I also bought a new shirt from Le Chateau and it was only $9.99. Score. I never buy anything from Le Chateau since it's not really my style and it's always pricy.
And then I bought some MAC too which is currently on my face :) Good shopping weekend. Bad for my bank account. Whoops!
OH! I signed up for a whole year of Crossfit! It also means that it's significantly cheaper per month now! Pretty excited to see what the next year may bring.